When Jiang Xu got up in the morning, Shen Fangyu was no longer in his room.
Jiang Xu glanced at his phone and found that it was already past nine o’clock. He hadn’t slept that long in a long time. He glanced at the alarm clock he had set last night and was surprised to find that it had been canceled.
No wonder he didn’t hear it ring.
Shen Fangyu had probably turned off the alarm clock after he fell asleep.
He wanted to get up and reprimand the culprit but felt that this occasional snooze… was quite pleasant. The soft bed had the familiar smell of home, and the soft pillows sank in and were extraordinarily comfortable against his face.
The house was surprisingly quiet, as if no one was there, and he stayed in bed for a while in a rare moment. He almost fell asleep again, but then sat up and tried to wake himself up.
After sitting for a while, he suddenly realized that there hadn’t been any movements outside since he woke up. He got up with some suspicion, intending to go out and have a look. Unexpectedly, as soon as he pushed the door open, ribbons exploded above his head.
The colorful strips mixed with gold dust fell in profusion. Jiang Xu looked for the culprit with a head full of lawsuits, only to find a table full of his favorite dishes. His parents were sitting at the table and looking at him, and there was a cake in the middle of the table.
Mother Jiang looked a bit flustered, and Father Jiang looked at him and said, “Come and eat after you’ve washed up.”
Shen Fangyu put his hand on the table and propped his chin, saying with a smile, “Good morning, Jiang Xu!”
Jiang Xu was still a little stunned when he sat down at the table after briefly washing up.
“You guys are……”
“Mom has cooked so many delicious dishes for you, just to …to…” Mother Jiang stammered, and Father Jiang simply spoke up to help her out, “Your mother wants to apologize to you!”
“This was Xiao Shen’s idea,” Mother Jiang took a bunch of yellow roses out of her bedroom and handed them to Jiang Xu, “I’ve never given anyone flowers in my life, so the first bouquet goes to my son.”
Jiang Xu glanced at Shen Fangyu, who smiled and said, “I thought of it myself this time; I didn’t go online to find a teacher.”
Jiang Xiu recalled the amount of time it took to remove the gold dust from his hair and said with a meaningful look in his eyes, “You’d better find it online next time.”
“Do you like the flowers?” Mother Jiang looked at Jiang Xu’s expression cautiously.
Jiang Xu lowered his head and smelled the yellow roses; they were fragrant, and the yellow color was like the sun when you get up in the morning and pull back the curtains to let the light spill down unchecked. It brightened his mood all of a sudden.
“Thanks, Mum.” He didn’t look up, dropping his eyelashes to cover his eyes, which were somewhat thick with emotion.
“I didn’t know this matter was life-threatening,” Mother Jiang’s eyes were red, she obviously hadn’t slept much all night, and she patted Jiang Xu’s arm and said, “Whether you get married or not, we’ll talk about it later, mum just wants you to be well more than anything.”
Jiang Xu pursed his lips and gave a very low “mm.”
Elders probably spend their whole lives holding on to the pride that they value more than anything else, but when their children are in trouble, they can put it aside for a while.
No matter how harsh the expectations and demands may have been in the past, everything else pales in comparison when health is at stake.
Living was more important than anything else.
Ren Miao’s parents were like that, and so were his parents.
Mother Jiang looked at him and felt a bit uncomfortable, saying, “Since this has happened, let’s face it.”
She took out a diary from behind her and said, “This is what mom wrote when she was pregnant with you. I hope it will help you.” She said, “I know you’re an adult, and you don’t like mom and dad living with you… If you’re not feeling well in the later months and would like mom to stay with you, just call me and I will ask for leave right away to take care of you.”
Jiang Xu took the diary and flipped through it casually; it was full of a mother’s expectations for her child.
Mother Jiang watched his actions, her expression taking on a bit of guilt: “I was too emotional when I first heard you say those things yesterday. I didn’t think that much and said something excessive, you …… don’t take it to heart, mom was just furious, I didn’t mean to say that.”
“This morning, Xiao Shen told me a lot more, and your father… also told me a lot. I also looked up some information on the Internet, I saw some people saying that your situation could be because the mother was not paying enough attention when she was pregnant, and that’s why your body became abnormal. “
Mother Jiang blamed herself, saying, “This matter is not your fault, it’s mom’s fault, I wasn’t careful enough when I was pregnant with you.”
She gave Jiang Xu two pieces of fragrant chicken and couldn’t help but shed two tears, “Xiao Xu, no matter what you are like, you are a piece of flesh that fell off your mother’s body, you are my good son.”
“Mom, don’t look at all that nonsense.” Jiang Xu didn’t expect his mother to think this way, and he put down the diary, the tip of his heart suddenly souring a little.
His gaze moved from the chicken in the bowl to Shen Fangyu, and then he looked at his father, who looked serious but had worried eyes.
Finally, he moved his gaze back to Mother Jiang and let out a shallow sigh, “I was just unlucky; it has nothing to do with you.”
Not knowing which word in this sentence poked Mother Jiang, her tears suddenly came down like a flood, her thick sobbing voice interspersed with a muffled, “Xiao Xu, you are too sensible.”
Her Xiao Xiu was Indeed too understanding.
When one encounters an unexpected accident, one inevitably wants to blame someone else in order to alleviate their remorse and guilt.
But her son never once complained about his parents or said, “You made me this way”.
“Okay, okay, crying like this will make Xiao Xu unable to eat; I thought we agreed to stop crying this morning.” Father Jiang squeezed Mother Jiang’s shoulders and handed her a few tissues.
“Our Xiao Xu is the doctor, you need to listen to him and stop believing those things on the internet. Let’s not say who’s right and who’s wrong here either, if you say so, I’m at fault too, it’s my bad genes that have put my son through this kind of grievance.”
“Yes, yes, I won’t cry.” Mother Jiang wiped her tears and struggled to squeeze out a smile as she said to Jiang Xu, “Here, eat some chicken, you like this the most.”
Jiang Xu took a deep breath and held the tip of his tongue against his jaw before he managed to press back the overpowering emotions in his heart. He smiled at his parents, the mole under his eyes vivid and dazzling.
“Okay.”
When they were ready to leave B City, the Jiang couple insisted on taking the two of them to the station, no matter how much Jiang Xu protested. Even after they had swiped their ID cards to enter the station, Jiang Xu could see his parents standing there in the distance.
His eyes flickered as he saw Shen Fangyu’s hand raised above his head as he waved vigorously. His parents also stretched out their hands and waved at them through several layers of glass.
Jiang Xu had often seen people like this at the station before, and as he was not one to show his emotions, he had always felt that this was somewhat exaggerated. But seeing Shen Fangyu wave to his parents, he suddenly had some complicated thoughts in his heart.
As he turned to walk inside the station, Jiang Xu asked, “Why are you so close to my parents all of a sudden?”
“I’ve always had a good relationship with auntie and uncle,” Shen Fangyu said with a wry smile, “Last time, they even grabbed my hand and asked me to be their godson. When your mother was cooking this morning, she even asked me to learn on the side, saying that all those dishes were your favorites and I had to learn them.”
Jiang Xu glanced at him, and Shen Fangyu laughed, “But your father was really fierce, he came to me at five this morning and talked to me for over an hour; his frown never let up, and he looked satisfied only after I swore over and over again that I would treat you and the baby well.”
There was nothing wrong with that, but somehow, it sounded strange in Jiang Xu’s ears.
Come to think of it, wasn’t that a common line from old Chinese TV dramas, especially from the scum male lead to the female lead?
Jiang Xu glanced at Shen Fangyu, who had a question mark on his face: “Did I say the wrong thing again?”
Jiang Xu ignored him, but after some minutes, Shen Fangyu suddenly sat down next to him and showed him a cart on his phone with several orders. Several book titles like “High Emotional Intelligence Chatting”, “Don’t Lose Because You Can’t Express Yourself,” and “The Way of Speaking” appeared in Jiang Xu’s sight.
At the very end, there was a book with an extremely bizarre title: “365 Cheesy Love Words to Coax Your Wife”.
The corner of Jiang Xu’s mouth twitched.
“Do you think it’s useful for me to learn these?” Shen Fangyu asked seriously.
“….” Jiang Xu patted his shoulder, took his phone, and tapped the button to cancel the orders and get a refund.
It was late when they got back to A City, so they went to the hospital for a visit before heading home.
When Shen Fangyu was going to knock on the bedroom door after showering, he found that the door, which was always closed before, was actually ajar today. He hesitated, but still knocked on the door.
Jiang Xu, who deliberately left the door open to suggest that Shen Fangyu should not knock and come in directly: “……”
When he heard no response from inside, Shen Fangyu knocked again, “Jiang Xu?”
Then he heard Jiang Xu clear his throat and say in a low voice, “Come in.”
He pushed the door open and asked curiously, “Why did you forget to close the door today? It’s cold, be careful of the wind from the hall.” He closed the door and was about to lie down when he suddenly realized his bed on the floor was gone.
“Are you trying to kick me out?” Shen Fangyu’s incredulity was tinged with a bit of grief. “Jiang Xu, you can’t be so heartless, where do you want me to stay in the middle of the night? How can you be so cruel?”
He had just gone through the parental torture with Jiang Xu; the blow he received from Mother Jiang on his back still hurt, and then they had a long talk about their pasts. He thought he and Jiang Xu had opened up their hearts and successfully evolved from being rivals to having an honest and open relationship. Unexpectedly, Jiang Xu took his bed as soon as they were back.
“……” Jiang Xu looked at him and was silent for a moment. Shen Fangyu always felt that Jiang Xu’s look contained a few questions about his intelligence.
Then Jiang Xu said, “Come here.”
“Huh?”
Shen Fangyu suspected that either his ears were wrong or Jiang Xu had said the wrong words …… No, it was impossible for Jiang Xu to say it wrong.
After that time when he had pissed Jiang Xu off and he left home, Shen Fangyu had become deeply aware of this.
“I’m telling you to come here and sleep.” Jiang Xu repeated, in an extremely rare moment of good temper, “The floor is cold, and didn’t you hurt your back?”
In the past, when he had let Shen Fangyu sleep on the floor, Shen Fangyu had always wanted to climb into his bed and would give a series of excuses, such as the floor being too hard and his cervical vertebrae being bad. Jiang Xu originally thought that if he offered to let Shen Fangyu sleep with him, the latter should be happy.
However, Shen Fangyu looked at him in a daze and asked, “Why?”
Jiang Xu looked at him with a frosty expression and asked, “Didn’t I say that I would take care of you from now on?”
As a result, Shen Fangyu didn’t say a word after this sentence.
“Are you coming over or not?”
Shen Fangyu said, “I’d better …… hit the floor.” He laughed dryly, “I’m afraid of heat, and I have hard bones, so I’m not comfortable sleeping in a soft bed.”
“……”
Jiang Xu was a little angry.
Previously, he had not allowed Shen Fangyu to sleep with him because he was not that familiar with him, and he was still upset about the one-night stand. But now that their relationship had eased up, and Shen Fangyu had not shown any weird behaviors during this time, he had invited Shen Fangyu to squeeze into the double bed with him. Moreover, Shen Fangyu had been beaten because of him.
As a result, Shen Fangyu refused.
“Fine, as you wish.”
Jiang Xu turned off the light with a snap, and he heard Shen Fangyu rustling around, taking out bedding from the wardrobe and starting to make a bed on the floor. The more he thought about it, the angrier he became.
Was he some kind of beast?
Would Shen Fangyu rather sleep on the floor than with him?
He wanted to ask Shen Fangyu, but he felt that he was being overly concerned, so he turned over and closed his eyes in anger.
On the other side, Shen Fangyu was lying on the bed on the floor with the blanket covering his face.
Fortunately, Jiang Xu had turned off the light quickly enough, otherwise, he would have been kicked out tonight.
He didn’t have time to think about what Jiang Xu was thinking, nor did he have the heart to think about why Jiang Xu had suddenly changed his attitude and asked him to come to the bed.
–Jiang Xu’s words had caused him to react.
Shen Fangyu’s scalp was tingling.
He was drunk the first time; the second time was when he saw Jiang Xu without his shirt on; and the third time was when he held Jiang Xu in his arms, which, to put it mildly, could be considered logical.
But what was going on now?
There was no alcohol, no physical contact, and no visual stimulation, so why the hell was his body excited?
What’s wrong with a good brother calling his good brother to sleep with him?
His nerves and brain were a little too sensitive to the name “Jiang Xu” and a little too active.
Unlike the soft mattresses Jiang Xu had padded for him, Shen Fangyu had made himself a very thin bed, and he could even clearly feel the hard ground and the coolness of the floor.
However, his heart was burning, and the coolness was just a drop in the bucket. Not only did he not calm down, but his thoughts became messier as time went on. He couldn’t even imagine how long it would take to calm down if he slept with Jiang Xu.
He should go to the hospital when he gets leave again, this issue could not wait another second.
On his day off, Shen Fangyu wrapped himself up as a night man in the daytime.
Black hat, black mask, and black sunglasses, he was even more tightly wrapped than a celebrity walking around.
The main reason was that Dr. Shen, Jihua’s social butterfly, knew so many people that he couldn’t guarantee that he wouldn’t meet someone he knew at any hospital.
It would have been fine If it had been some other illness, but Shen Fangyu couldn’t tell his acquaintances about his illness this time. Even if he was as thick skinned as a wall, he didn’t want to run into someone he knew.
After crossing out the hospitals in City A, he settled on a remote hospital in a nearby county. He drove to the outskirts of the city early in the morning and carefully registered for an andrology specialist, then huddled in a corner and silently watched the call signs.
The specialist was fully booked, so Shen Fangyu could only register for a general number, and he couldn’t see the doctor’s name. Even though it was random and he was in a remote county, Shen Fangyu still couldn’t calm down.
“Number 83, Shen Fangyu.”
Doctor: “I diagnose you with gay”
I’m cackling
Ah yes, I see so many parents who blame themselves for their children’s biological defects, thinking it was their fault. Sometimes, genetics is just a downright pain. Sometimes, cells just don’t do things ‘correctly’, and that’s okay. There’s no need to feel guilty for it.
Shen Fangyu: doctor am I sick????
Doctor: yes, my diagnosis is dead
Shen Fangyu: what???
Doctor: dead brain to come with me to ask about your sexual orientation!